I'm starting to get restless. After so many adventures and new experiences in the past two years, staying in a single place with a fulltime job is rather... uninspiring. So I've put a lot of thought into a variety of plans and ideas - thinking about traveling, moving, and big changes. A lot of my thinking was spurred on by the idea that I care deeply about living compassionately and bravely, not simply sitting on a couch blogging my ideas into the air. If I care so much about the environment, I ought to do something about it. If I care that there are children who are unloved or starving, why not go love them? Idealistic and silly when I put it like that, but in the end, I think that putting effort towards my beliefs could help me move my live from idealism to realism.
Anyway, I realized today that I had forgotten about the small things in my life. My job wouldn't be able to just pick up and find a new person. I have responsibilities towards my family and my friends. There are small ways here that I can start making my life meet some of my ideals. Little things, which can be just as important, and hard, as more drastic measures.
All that to say, I just it's just not time to move on yet. Not that this means I can be complacent and comfortable, but there are people here who might need me, if just in little ways.
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