Christians love to talk about how each of us have gifts given by God, both spiritual gifts and skills that was use in our everyday lives. I've always thought my life would be defined by finding these gifts and then finding a suitable way to apply them.
Funny thing is, I don't actually like many of my practical gifts. Sure, I can do math, but I don't enjoy it. Yeah, I can write a research paper, but why would I spend my life on theoretical knowledge?
I do enjoy writing, music, relationships, building, etc. The list goes on. Naturally, I have little talent for any of these things.
One of the ideas that I'm learning through YWAM is that you can, to some extent, pick your own talents. The human mind is one of God's greatest gifts and I get to choose how to use it, which tends to result in a great number of failures. Life is failure, however, and then standing up again. So if I want to learn to garden, then I can try, and probably kill a great many plants (sorry in advance). If my heart's deepest desire turns out to be raising goats, well, there might be lots of temporarily unhappy goats in my future. If I love to pass my knowledge along to others, there will certainly be many confused students wandering around at first.
Finding that one natural gift might not be my best option. After all, think of all the adventures I would have missed while hiding in a library. Then again, there may be many adventures left for me in libraries, who knows?